In Limbo

So I got some pretty crappy news at the beginning of November. I missed the deadline for an important test and it just may cost me an entire semester. It was a huge blow to my educational future. I graduated from high school in 2002. Tomorrow it will be 2009. I should have graduated from college three years ago. It's kind of embarrassing to still be working on it. Granted some of the circumstances were beyond my control. I've had knee surgery twice that kept me down for two whole semesters. It just...it's so close. Only a few more semesters and I'm done. I can finally move on with my life. And then I found out about the missed deadline. It was the only thing missing from my application to the Teacher Education program. And that one little test grade cost me in a major way. It wasn't something I could have helped. At the time of the deadline, my brother was having health issues and I was wrapped up in family drama. I've filed an appeal, but there's no guarantee it will work. I got a letter the other day that basically told me not to hold my breath. So for the next few weeks, I'm in limbo, which isn't a place I'm thrilled to be. I hate that I don't know what I'm taking next semester. Ask anyone who knows me and they can attest to how organized I like to be. I'm just so very ready to be finished. I'm ready to move on with the next part of my life. I feel so stuck. I can't move on until I get my degree. I can't get my degree until this matter is cleared up. Ugh. I know that God has a reason for all of this. He's crafting my life in His own way and He will make my paths straight. It's just hard to keep a smile on my face when what I want falls just beyond my reach. I just have to keep faith. The Lord never promised life would be easy. He only said we wouldn't have to do it alone. So while everyone has their problems, God promised He would never leave us or forsake us. That's the promise I have to cling to.